It felt like a knife to the kidneys, slowly sinking into my flesh, twisting to inflict even more pain when I heard the initial news reports on Saturday morning.
I didn’t know how bad the vicious massacre in Israel was, but just imagining the mass killing at the Music Peace Festival was devastating.
I have felt a love affair with my homeland from a distance since I was 13 years old in 1958. That was when the fiction book Exodus was published, written by Leon Uris. The movie, starring Paul Newman, came out in 1960. It was about the founding of Israel. Newman played Ari Ben Canaan. I vowed to name my first son Ari, which I did 17 years later.
Almost every Jew in the world has a relative in Israel. When my dad’s grandfather came to America in 1893 to work at the World’s Fair in Chicago, he came alone. He had nine brothers and sisters. Some stayed in Russia near Minsk, half came to the United States, and one sister emigrated to South Africa. The other siblings went to Palestine, settling near Tel Aviv in a swampy settlement. They carved out a living and helped build the country when it was run by the British.
Their story was not unusual. The country was built mostly by Eastern European Jews and then the remnant of Jews who somehow survived the Holocaust. Later, Jews came from Arab countries, Persia, and Western Europe. As in Europe, they were hated in Palestine, especially after hundreds of thousands of Palestinians had fled to sit out the War of Independence in 1948, believing that they would return after the Jews were killed or pushed out.
The Jewish people who founded the country came mostly out of desperation. They were a tough lot.
Hatred between Arabs and Jews has simmered ever since. Israel ultimately prospered. A friendly relationship with America and the financial help of North American Jews helped. Arab countries were mostly ruled by despots. The Palestinian refugees are still sitting destitute in camps in these countries.
We had the 1967 war and the Yom Kippur War in 1973 and now 50 years later, the massacre coming from Gaza.
I am sure some of my relatives were killed Saturday and others called upon to fight.
I sit and watch the TV accounts of grieving wives, mothers, and brothers and sisters. I’m sending money, saying prayers, and hoping the violence is somehow limited.
I barely care if the breach of the border with Gaza was a security fiasco at this point. I just want the killing to stop and the hostages to be released.
The last time my family was in Israel was in December of 1999. We spent most of the time in Tel Aviv and Jerusalem but traveled to Palestinian areas with my wife’s Uncle Ed, who had emigrated to Israel from North Carolina. He worked to learn the language and became a guide.
My happiest memory of the trip was going to the south of Jordan for a couple days, staying in a lovely tourist hotel and our entire family taking a Turkish bath, and posing for a photo in big white Turkish towels.
It was a happier time.
Now my oldest granddaughter awaits word from her friends who chose to go back to Israel from California to volunteer for the Army rather than go to college. They chose to do that a year ago.
May they be safe. May the current killing season be short.
Meanwhile, I will mourn and monitor the news.
My people deserve better.
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My thoughts and prayers are with Israel, the wounded, and the grieving. I also hope for a speedy conclusion to hostilities there.
Lloyd – My thoughts and prayers go out to Israel.
Thank you for sharing your story Lloyd and my deepest sympathy to you, your family and friends, and all the innocent people affected by this horrific tragedy.
The human suffering is unimaginable. May it end soon.
Lloyd,
Very nice story of your travels to Israel. I certainly hope the war stops immediately. It has the potential to ignite hostilities throughout the Middle East and beyond. The world seems to be a tinder box.
One question to you though regarding Israel as your ‘homeland’. Is that your feeling since Israel is the ancestral homeland to the Jewish people? I thought your more immediate ancestors were from Poland.
Hi, Robert- My family lived in Lithuania and Russia before coming to America at the beginning of the pograms in the 1910s. But those countries were never our homeland- only where we were exiled to. We are indigenous to Israel.
Lloyd, thank you for this piece. Love the story on Ari’s name. I am also beyond devastated. Am waiting the fate of the hostages, some of whom are relatives of friends. The scope and magnitude of the carnage is unbearable. The hostages must be released, Hamas must be destroyed, and then Bibi must answer. In that order.
Wishing you well, and for all of us- better days.
We pray with you Lloyd for the safety of your family members, and ‘for the peace of Jerusalem.’
Peter
“We will only have peace with the Arabs when they love their children more than they hate us”
Golda Meir